This is a song about dealing with uncertainty. I wrote the bulk of it on some night train somewhere in Europe. At heart, it's about my decision to be a musician. But, speaking more generally, it's about figuring out what it is that you need to get done with your life, and just doing it.
lyrics
I know that it has been said before, but not like this, or with these chords:
I wish that I was someone else so I could sit down with myself.
Maybe I could help explain these crazy thoughts I entertain about my life,
and everything, like how it’s really happening right now.
I’m bored, I’m restless, disconnected, aimlessness has left me breathless.
But my life has been redirected and I’m starting to accept this.
Efforts now must be relentless because failures leave me so upset with myself,
but I swear this is all that I love; you’re going to see exactly what I’m made of tonight.
As for the rest of my life, well, I’ll just wait and see what happens to me from here.
So it seems, like all of the time I’m about to change my mind.
I’m so niave, yet resolute after I've decided what to do.
I can’t wear a tie on my collared shirt, I can’t get a job and just go to work.
I’m worried sick like you wouldn’t believe have you any idea what this means to me?
Looking back now makes me laugh. I'm grateful I don’t want the things that I lack.
Except for time, oh goddam me, when did free time become such a luxury?
See, if I don’t do this while I'm young I'm certain that it wont get done.
So I've made my choice and it’s all right, I'm ready to really start living my life.
So I swear to god that I will quit my job and drive until my car just stops.
I'll walk until I reach the ocean, maybe I will know what to do by then.
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